Chapter 18 C
MY TRIP COST ME A LOT MORE THAN WHAT YOU THINK. I HAVE GIVEN YOU 400, ALL OF THIS BECAUSE I FELL FOR A PICTURE AND FAKE WORDS AND WHAT I SEE RIGHT NOW.
Uou were keeping score. I've given you things that even you can't name. things you couldn't pay for in this life and the next.
I THINK HE CALLED ME ON A VIDEO CLIP...
I CAN'T REMEMBER IF I SAW HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME THERE. 5 SECONDS IN A VIDEO. VERY LITTLE TIME TO SEE AND THERE WAS NO CHEMISTRY.
IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH COLOR. WHEN BLACK PEOPLE LIKE YOU REALIZE THAT MAYBE THE WORLD WILL WORK BETTER?
YOU SAID IT YOURSELF: YOU CONNECT WITH A PERSON, NOT WITH A COLOR, IDIOT. AND IT TAKES CHEMISTRY TO FALL IN LOVE. WHAT I SAW IN A 5 SEC VIDEO LEFT ME WITH NOTHING, I FELT BARELY ANYTHING AND HAD NO SPARKS.
I kept telling you not to travel, not to spend money. I kept telling you that I wasn't there in south africa, you just didn't listen.
I was supposed to tell you then. remember I told you to help out and I will tell you everything.
I HAD BOYFRIENDS FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD, THEY GIVE ME THINGS. YOU GIVE ME NOTHING. JUST MORE LIES.
You prove you weren't ready for the truth.
He wasn’t there. You went to see Andy and he wasn’t there, he never was.
THIS IS WHAT I WENT TO SEE: A PURE LIAR.
Andy I didn't lie, Andy can't be found anywhere online because he is in service with the navy.
ANDY DOESN'T EXIST. WOW, WE KNOW ....NOW!
I will hold this against you when we meet. You are a whole different woman from when we met. Do you believe you prayed your way here or sang your way here?
Do you think you made it easy to stay with you or to keep going?
STOP. IF YOU DON'T EXIST EITHER, YOU ARE A FAKE.
Some day you'll claw my brain out. One mind saying "let her be", if you give this attention to another woman she'd give you more, but i stayed. that's your "nothing".
I need peace. I told you the truth to find peace, not love. i already love you and I felt your love, it's not going to be new again.
OKAY.
Every word written, every poem inspired, every thought... dedicated to you. none will I take back.
Farewell. Talking to me would grant you anymore insight than you have now. you will need space.
OKAY.
YOU ARE NOT ANDY. YOU LIE AND I HAVE FELT NO CHEMISTRY LOOKING AT YOU IN THOSE CONFUSING VIDEOS OR PICTURES. SO WHAT, DO YOU HACK HIS LIFE? ARE YOU PAID BY THE NIGERIAN GOVERNMENT TO HACK IN AMERICA?
Paid by the nigerian government... but the government isn't responsible for everything. Some things are just human being human. This is all me and a friend who introduced me to the game.
TO THE GAME OF LOSERS!
YOU ARE NOT HUMAN!
AND HE GOES TO CHURCH? EVIL PERSON. GO TO HELL! YOU ARE NOT MAN ENOUGH TO PUT A PICTURE OF YOURSELF. YOU ARE HIDING BEHIND THE PROFILE OF OTHERS. YOU SHOULD BE HIDING BEHIND BARS. LEAVE ME ALONE!
i guess it wasn't meant for me.
I DID NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU. YOU DON'T EXIST. I FELL IN LOVE WITH A PICTURE: ANDY MC RYAN. YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE A PICTURE. I FELL IN LOVE WITH A FAKE PROFILE. YOU SIMPLY DON'T EXIST.
You fell in love with a person and he cannot sleep because he has hurt you. He is worried sick. please don't take too long thinking, please you don't know how sorry I am.
(Je suis là)
You have the right to believe whatever about me, it doesn't make it who I am. You know nothing about me. the hardship I've had to endure alone all 30 years of my life. it may take a day, two days, or a week for you to see the truth. I'll be here then.
No comments:
Post a Comment